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As I was driving down the highway today I became acutely aware. . .

1. There is such a wonderful color and beauty which surrounded me in nature. Since it is autumn, the various colors that are otherwise hidden within the leaves are able to emerge and display such a magnificence. And this is all part of a dying experience. For some this already sounds too morbid, but I believe this is because we have too easily lost a proper appreciation for the seasons of life - it is not that those who see beauty in the process of dying are particularly warped.

2. There seems to be an equation to spiritual existence. Yet this is not some mathematical economy which may be experienced as a formula in which lives are placed in a cosmic algebraic recipe and have all turned out. There is faith and hope. . .faith is built upon that which God has done in the past and hope is looking forward to the future. Yet there are three that remain: love is that which enables us to move from faith to hope in a three-part pilgrimage.

c. Trinity gains us an understanding of reality (it is the ultimate reality). Three persons, one essence. Bound together by an eternal and perfect love. Which means (among MANY other things) that Jesus and the Spirit and the Father are connected through love. We are told to display love toward each other and toward this loving perfection. The only possible way we can experience love is through the Spirit, which is the presence of Jesus who has enabled us to enter into the throne room of his heavenly Father. Could it be that the love we share carries the very presence of Christ? Perhaps even the heavenly glory of the Father?

4. Have you ever stopped to realize how close we are to the eternal? Our world is marked by so much that is temporary, yet the activity of grasping for these straws somehow binds us to that which will never end. We try to hold on to this life - sometimes for good and sometimes because we can't help ourselves - and we find that everything slips away from our reach. Even the most spiritually momentus occasions can not be preserved, yet we are still reaching for them. Perhaps our lives are indeed sacraments: outward signs of an inward grace. Sometimes we might be sacramenting the wrong direction.



four roads: one intersection: in more ways than one. . .




“Gratitude is a spiritual virtue that opens the door of the soul to the world around us.” *



C. Hassell Bullock, Encountering the Book of Psalms (Grand Rapids: Baker, 2004), 160.

penetrable

There are, I suppose, two incompatible thoughts of god which dictate human existence. At least, they may be found incompatible in our particular uses (or understandings) of them. The first is to believe that god is a mighty fortress which cannot be infiltrated. And the other is that god is so interested in our lives that he can be summoned over the slightest murmur of a prayer. In modern day evangelicalism I do not see a healthy connection of these ideals. Perhaps this is because we do a rather poor job of acurately living this out. Our church spaces are most likely the best indication of this: either we have spaces that are truly contemporary but display little (if any) sense of reverence and awe or we have spaces which are stately and majestic but which make it difficult to approach god on terms other than white-collar, upper-class, management terms.

An interesting situation.

However, a solution might be approached if we realize that god is not an impenetrable and ineffable mystery before which one bow down to the dust, overwhelmed by mystical emotions but one who is intimately involved with every aspect of his creation. When Scripture speaks of his mindful eye it makes a profound statement that God is actively caring for all he has made. What is more, all that he has made is given an incredible position of being able to call out his name.

An interesting solution.

The notion of this god being available leads to the biblical position of god being moveable. Although many systematicians claim that god is not able to change (despite things such as the incarnation), Scripture is very clear and forthright about praying as though prayers make a difference! All of this leads to a god who has opened himself up to the risk of being hurt all so that he might have a genuine love and relationship with his people. This does not sound like an impenetrable force.

An interesting vantage point:

Since we are enamored with the biggest, strongest, best, etc. . .we cannot help but have pictures of might color our view of God. Even after he has demonstrated not a love of power, but a power of love (see blog. And given his position as creator and sustainer, it is not a question of whether or not this god exists as one who cannot be dethroned, but rather what kind of god is this that would risk rejection and a thwarted will (at least, in part) that he would enter into this world.

And as the creator, sustainer, and foundation. . .one must not worry about his lack of mighty strength (cf. Isaiah 40)




*gratitude to: Artur Weiser, The Psalms (Louisville: WJK, 1962), 467-472.

penitence

illuminate

my heart's conscience

that

I might emerge

from your Shadow


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simply

. . .but success in whose terms?

I once was told that churches seldom (if ever) divide over matters of doctrine or theology, yet somehow find ways to split over the color of carpet, which font should be used on the hymnal engraving, or other seemingly meaninglessness tidbits. Although this mostly a facetious statement, there is a sting of truth in it. More acurately, it is the love and desire of power of influence which causes the difficulties to emerge. Perhaps this is because it is very much a part of human nature (or fallenness) that we should seek to have control. After all, is it not the first sin to take matters into our own hands?

St Francis penned:

To those who have lost their way, let me restore it to them.
To those who are aimless, let me bring purpose.
To those who do not know who they are,
let me teach them that they are the children of God and can be used as his instruments in the never-ending work of healing and redemption.

The image of 'instrument' is a far cry from the power struggles which so often characterize our modern Christianity. The relevant passage here is Romans 6:13: "Do not offer the parts of your body to sin, as instruments of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God, as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer the parts of your body to him as instruments of righteousness."

Interestingly enough, this simple monk from Assisi has reached across time and space in order to impact so many who have listened to his words. With a lack of regard for himself, he allowed the glory of God to shine through his words and actions and so let his power of influence be controlled by the Almighty. It is noticeable that the great saints that have gone before simply sought the face of God. It is because of this that they have been so powerful in reaching across the centuries as "instruments."

All the while so many are determined to walk the easy path of complex religion rather than the difficult path of simple faith.

nauseated

The moral flabbiness born of the bitch-goddess success. That - with the squalid interpretation put on the word success - is our national disease.*

Just how long will our churches and religious communites submit themselves to such earthy notions of success, whereby we measure our effectiveness by number and power? I have been a part of churches both large and small, economically secure and lacking, in fine facilities and those with peeling paint. And no matter how many times the issue of overemphasis on attendance, buildings and cash is denounced by religious leaders there remains many power struggles ranging from the direction of millions of dollars worth of funds to what color the sanctuary carpet should be. Why? Because we have sold ourselves to the notion that success is them most important ideal.

But success in whose terms?

Denominations want to see increased revenue, membership and baptisms. Church boards want to see people filling their pews. Churchgoers desire the best music and a flashy sermon. And everyone desires their churches to be admired and accepted by the community. Perhaps the case can be made that each of these are fine in and of themselves, but the constant hyperextension to include these at the center of church life demonstrates the current situation of moral flabbiness of which William James speaks.

I have found this in many conversations following all types of religious gatherings (from church 'business' to church 'fellowship' - as though the life of a church can be separated). There are many who want to immediately decide if everything was a 'success'. What if it wasn't? Then what? Do we work to make it a success next time, if there even is a next time? Provide enough of these situations and one can easily trace the downward spiral of fabricating socio-cultural entertainment. In other words, our incredibly poor concept of success leads us further away from our mission as a church. And the result is a moral flabbiness which is characterized by the lack of understanding truth and pervading sinfulness within our churches today. It also explains the failure of the 'seeker-sensitive' movement which paved the way into this level of churchy leisure instead of holding fast in a world of shifting sands.

It is indeed a shame that the words of Amos are so quickly forgotten in our modern culture. Speaking on behalf of God:

I can't stand your religious meetings.
I'm fed up with your conferences and conventions.
I want nothing to do with your religion projects,
your pretentious slogans and goals.
I'm sick of your fund-raising schemes,
your public relations and image making.
I've had all I can take of your noisy ego-music.
When was the last time you sang to me?
Do you know what I want?
I want just - oceans of it.
I want fairness - rivers of it.
That's what I want. That's all I want



I have to admit that there are times when my stomach turns as harshly as this. And I am begin to think that it's not last night's pizza anymore!


"So long as man remains free he strives for nothing so incessantly and so painfully as to find someone to worship."**







Bible translation from The Message: a good paraphrase for those "too comfortable" with Scripture. . .

*William James, 11 September 1906
**Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

IX

My Dear Wormwood,

I hope my last letter has conviced you that the trough of dullness or "dryness" through which your patient is going at present will not, of itself, give you his soul, but needs to be properly exploited. What forms the exploitation should take I shall now consider.

In the first place I have always found that the Trough periods of the human undulation provide excellent opportunity for all sensual temptations, particularly those of sex. This may surprise you, because, of course, there is more physical energy, and therefore more potential appetite, at the Peak periods; but you must remember that the powers of resistance are then also at their highest. The health and spirits which you want to use in producing lust can also, alas, be very easily used for work or play or thought or innocuous merriment. The attack has a much better chance of success when the man's whole inner world is drab and cold and empty. And it is also to be noted that the Trough sexuality is subtly different in quality from that of the Peak - much less likely to lead to teh mild-and-water phenomenon which the humans call "being-in-love," much more easily drawn into perversions, much less contaminated by those generous and imaginative and even spiritual concomitants which often render human sexuality so disappointing. It is the same with other desires of the flesh. You are much more likely to make your man a sound drunkard by pressing drink on him as an anodyne when he is dull and weary than by encouraging him to use it as a means of merriment among his friends when he is happy and expansive. Never forget that when we are dealing with any pleasure in its healthy and normal and satisfying form, we are, in a sense, on the Enemy's ground. I know we have won many a soul through pleasure. All the same, it is His invention, not ours. He made the pleasures: all our research so far has not enabled us to produce one. All we can do is to encourage the humans to take the pleasures which our Enemy has produced, at times, or in ways, or in degrees, which He has forbidden. Hence we always try to work away from the natural condition of any pleasure to that in which it is least natural, least redolent of its Maker, and least pleasurable. An ever increasing craving for an ever diminishing pleasure is the formula. It is more certain; and it's better style. To get the man's soul and give him nothing in return - that is what really gladdens Our Father's heart. And the troughs are the time for beginning the process.

But there is an even better way of exploiting the Trough; I mean through the patient's own thoughts about it. As always, the first step is to keep knowledge out of his mind. Do not let him suspect the law of undulation. Let him assume that the first ardours of his conversion might have been expected to last, and ought to have lasted, forever, and that his present dryness is an equally permanent condtition. Having once got this misconception well fixed in his head, you may then proceed in various ways. It all depends on whether your man is of the desponding type who can be tempted to despair, or of the wishful-thinking type who can be assured that all is well. The former type is getting rare among the humans. If your patient should happen to belong to it, everything is easy. You have only got to keep him out of the way of experienced Christians (an easy task nowadays), to direct his attention to the appropriate passages in Scripture, and then to set him to work on the desperate design of recovering his old feelings by sheer will power, and the game is ours. If he is of the more hopeful type, your job is to make him acquiesce in the present low temperature of his spirit and gradually become content with it, persuading himself that it is not so low after all. In a week or two you will be making him doubt whether the first days of his Christianity were not, perhaps, a little excessive. Talk to him about "moderation in all things." If you can once get him to the point of thinking that "religion is all very well up to a point," you can feel quite happy about his soul. A moderated religion is as good for us as no religion at all - and more amusing.

Another possibility is that of direct attack on his faith. When you have caused him to assuem that the trough is permanent, can you not persuade him that "his religious phase" is just going to die away like all his previous phases? Of course, there is no conceivable way of getting by reason from the proposition "I am losing interest in this" to the proposition "This is false." But, as I have said before, it is jargon, not reason, you must rely on. The mere word "phase" will very likely do the trick. I assume that the creature has been through several of them before - they all have - and that he always feels superior and patronising to the ones he has emerged from, not because he has really criticised them but simply because they are in the past. (You keep him well fed on hazy ideas of Progress and Development and the Historical Point of View, I trust, and give him lots of modern biographies to read? The people in them are always emerging from Phases, aren't they?)

You see the idea? Keep his mind off the plain antithesis between True and False. Nice shadowy expressions - "It was a phase" - "I've been through all that" - don't forget the blessed word "Adolescent."

Your affectionate uncle
Screwtape





C.S. Lewis, The Screwtape Letters
Letter IX

chase

. . .and when he had taken it, the four living creatures and the twenty-four elders fell down before the Lamb. Each one had a harp and they were holding golden bowls full of incense, which are the prayers of the saints. . .
Revelation 5:8

. . .those who had been victorious [sang]. . .'Who will not fear you, O Lord, and bring glory to your name? For you alone are holy. All nations will come and worship before you, for your righteous acts have been revealed.'
Revelation 15


In the first scene there is a portrait of the heavenly throne room, which is painted in terms similar to the earthly temple that stood in Jerusalem. For morning and evening worship there was offered from the temple incense to symbolize the rising of the prayers of God's people to his throne. What happened next? Perhaps there were some individuals who had various answers or thoughts on what happened to these prayers once they had ascended from the earth, but most likely it was considered to be in God's hands and therefore unnecessary to ponder. Or maybe even some who (so much like us today) felt as though they had fulfilled their religious quota by praying and could then move on with the remainder of the day.

There is, however, a picture of what happens to this rising incense: it is gathered in heaven and held in the presence of God. For the sake of accuracy, we must recognize that not all prayers are being described here, even though there seems to be a more universally principle understood. Rather, these prayers are specifically for the return of Jesus and the glory and judgment which will accompany his coming. These prayers for justice and righteousness - the heart of God's kingdom - are held in the very presence of God that he might be mindful of them.

In the second seen there is a portrait of those who have prayed and have proven themselves victorious, which is painted in terms that display a deeply spiritual significance to their lives. As God's will is being done on earth as it is in heaven, these persons cry out a worshipful song of praise, All nations will come and worship before you.

"Thus the saints have followed their own prayers to heaven. The faithfulness with which they lived and died in hope of the kingdom for which they prayed, has made them part of the answer to their prayers."*

The picture is this: the saint offers a prayer (a life) which rises as incense to the heavenly throne room. From there the saint runs furiously after this prayer to witness and worship the one who brings fulfillment. Perhaps this sounds odd, yet this could only be the coloring of our own culture which does not see prayer as a source of empowerment to godly action but a means of escapism from the duty and responsibilities of partnering with the divine. We chase because we can act. . .and we can witness. . .and we can worship.

. . .as it is in heaven. . .




*Richard Bauckham, "Prayer in the Book of Revelation" in Into God's Presence, ed. Richard N. Longenecker (Grand Rapids: Eerdmans, 2001), 266.

life is a church

watching the surf cover up my toes
breathing the salt air from the coast
ten years old with my eyes pressed closed
life is a church

remembering first love's tender kiss
mourning the loss of my innocence
the bittersweet taste of it on my lips

life is a church
these are the sacraments
this is the altar
love is the spirit
making the blue planet turn
life is a church

watching my baby being born
written all over you, pain and joy
holding your hand, it's a little boy

life is a church
these are the sacraments
this is the altar
love is the spirit
making the blue planet turn
life is a church

ashes to ashes, earth to earth
the preacher throws in the first handful of dirt
my little boy asks me, "Does goodby always hurt?"

life is a church
these are the sacraments
this is the altar
love is the spirit
making the blue planet turn
life is a church




life is a church
Marcus Hummon
(c) 2005 Careers BMG Music Publishing (BMI)

dim

"when the music fades. . ."

There are days when you don't feel your faith within you. Not exactly the dark night or barren wilderness, but times when the Christian commitment does not demand an emotive expression. For those who have not understood the difference between joy and happiness, this can often be confused with spiritual dryness. I maintain that they are vastly different.

Sunday past was one of these days when my emotions were more of the "I'm-just-not-in-this" variety than anything else. Even though I was looking forward to the services. Perhaps this would be bothersome to certain individuals but my reflection has brought me to see that this was a time of allowing the noise of an outpouring faith to cease just long enough to hear a still small voice.

And that is what happened.

Through our community of faith we had a moving and memorable worship experience together with our Lord which made the lack of emotion meaningless. For faith goes so much further than emotion and is a call to true commitment and discipleship regardless of the world around us. Or empassioned by the world around us? Or inspired by the world around us?

To identify God as the cause behind all of this is to identify him as the author of creation. This means that when we look at creation we see into the mind of the creator. Life is no different, its experiences and moments become the grand movements of the outworking of a wild imagination. Sometimes the most emotional movements come to dimmed individuals who have grown tired of big shows.

incontheivable

I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you will receive it, and it will be yours.
Mark 11:24

"How does one develop a faith like that? The matter is not helped by the way in which the disciples have just seen Jesus cause a fig tree to wither and been told that faith can move mountains. How can these things be - even if it be granted that the saying is metaphorical and hyperbolical? Our concern is not usually with moving mountains! Far more often it is about doing things that are a great deal more ordinary by comparison." *

Until I read that earlier today, it had never before occurred to me that it might be possible to over-expect in our prayer life. I mean, in all of my years growing up in the church I never hear this. . .in fact, I was always given the understanding that we do not expect enough when we pray. In all actuality, I believe that both (mis)approaches go hand in hand.

It becomes apparent that our spirituality becomes so focused on grandiose religious ideals that we live out more pie-in-the-sky worldviews than real life faith. And then there is the tendency to look for mountains which we can run out and move and never notice daily situations because we quickly dismiss them as molehills. Even when those molehills are the highest of mountains to those who struggle to cross over them.

And while we are looking for summits to reconfigure, using our prayers as dynamite we miss out on all that God has waiting for us that is within our reach. Because we think of them as less-significant we assume that God will not bother in dealing with them either. Which leads us to underestimate and underexpect his activity.

One question, though: when YHWH acts, can it ever be considered more or less significant?







* I. Howard Marshall, "Jesus - Example and Teacher of Prayer in the Synoptic Gospels" in Into God's Presence: Prayer in the New Testament. Richard N. Longenecker, ed. (Grand Rapids: Eerdmans, 2001), 121.