shaken

[in regards to paul and the damascus experience - which, incidentally, was also the name of his punk rock band]

Following his encounter with the risen kind, we see a tremendous change come over the outlook and activity of this devout Pharisaic and zealous first-century Jew. A faithful member of the nation of Israel, this man knew that obedience to the Law was the only hope that this people group had for their god to come and establish his kingdom. Any attempt to subvert this divine activity had to be removed from the picture - by force, if necessary. Such was the devotion and zeal of this man.

And yet we take for granted the impact upon him as we are content with our sunday-school representation of Saul going down the road, blinded and commissioned by a risen Jesus, and suddenly changing his name to Paul (which isn't the case anyway. . .) while going on tour to tell everyone that Christianity was the right choice. With such a glossed over reading of the text it is no wonder why we do not see more people in our churches wrestling with their faith and fearful to struggle with spirituality. For as advances as Saul was in his own spiritual understanding, this face-to-face with Jesus left him in a definite daze.

In his own account of the impact of this event, we learn that he had to get away from everything for at least three years in order to sort all of this out (see here). And this is a guy with serious credentials. I am a firm believer that there is no encounter with Jesus that does not leave us in some sort of a daze (if so, then it probably was not a legitmate encounter with him). His holiness impacts our unholiness with such incredible power that we can not come away unchanged.

A shaken faith might not be the end of the world. . .

And when Christ has stripped away all of your 'phony-baloney' kind of systematic theology, all of your lame, Protestant kind of stupidity, all of your Catholic hang-ups, when Christ has stripped away everything that we have invented about Him, then maybe we will encounter Him as He really is. And we will know ourselves as we really are. So don't be afraid that your faith gets shaken. Could be that God is shaking you forward, and shaking you free.
~Rich Mullins